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ian brewser is the only person that makes me feel so damn beautiful only if i just look at his face and sayin’ Hi.. and he replied.. “hi”..
once i wrote on my journal for “Kesehatan Mental” (one of the subjects i took last term), n i wrote couple pages bout him.. bout how things changed a lot lately.. bout how i really miss him terribly and looking forward to see what’s new bout him..
now, its not because i got good point for that subjects, but it’s about when i look back at my journal, i read it, and i imagine the moment i spent about 3 years ago.. that’s just enough to make me feel sooo sad..
ian brewser is my brad pitt in my reality.. he’s handsome.. the most handsome person i ever met, and i bet the most handsome person you’ve ever met EVER.. the most handsome person u could’ve just imagine..
i remembered, my last conversation with him was in the evening after i finished my lessons at EF. he said, Hi and asked me bout my plan for the night.. i could’nt answer.. speechless..
I MESSED UP..

untill now, i guess that’s the BIGGEST OPPORTUNITY to know a lot more about him..
my old friend, Fiona had a glimpse of FUCKIN’ GREAT moment with him, watching movie together.. WITHOUT ME! ohh.. she’s soo lucky..

I’M NOT LUCKY.. (NOT YET, MAYBE)
he’s make my teenage days soo colorful.. if there’s someone asked me about whats the best moment i had on my teenage days, OF COURSE i’ll say.. “when i meet Ian Brewser..”

i don’t know where he is nowadays..
i send e-mail, he did’nt reply.. i’ve got his last email about 1,5 years ago, he told me he was on vacation in Malaysia..
i asked Fiona, she did’nt have any idea, either..

ian brewser still on my mind.. my “who i want to meet” at Friendster..
ian brewser is the legacy.. one thing i learned is not just about love, lust, crush on or any kind of those stuff.. its just a lot more deeper than that..
i’s about how u respect and bless the day you meet everybody in ur life..
i’ts about lettin’ go.. but not forgettin’..